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I´ve just find out what was wrong.
I used ATB pills and there was some contradiction, not that it is not allowed to use them, but it has some side effect on CNS.I gave up them and now I feel OK. It is a little ironic that the whole week I was ill I maybe could have felt better if I didn´t use them.
With the antidepressives it is the same like StarlightBJ said. (BTW thank you for a comment)
In th beginning I had strange dreams and strong lucid dreams, but now not so often.
Summary: I was ill, went to a doctor,and become even more sick...huh, there isn´t summary, I have lost the point, I´m crazy :)

When I was at a high school, I´ve read Platon´s Symposion. It was demanding for rading, but I quite liked it.
I´ve always liked Platon, I don´t know why, ´coz I don´t know much about him except that he was philosoph and writer, and that he wrote about mythical land or island Atlantis, which I´m interested in. And maybe it is just because he was gay. I have a soft spot for them. :-)

And recently I found his Phaedros. I really liked it. It is about Socrates and Phaedros discuissing ones writers book, which is about Why is better to be with somebody who doesn´t loves you than with somebody who does. And then they are talking about opposite, why be with somebody who loves you, and somehow it happend to discuisse the essence of soul, which is kind of thing I like to think about.

It seems to me that today when somebody says the word philosoph, it doesn´t sound good, it is supposed to be somebody who doesn´t want work or something.

But when I read this book, I could see they were really inteliggent, kind persons. And it is like about 500 years B.C.!
I was happy to read it.

Finally, before New Year, I managed to find subtitles, first part of the movie in English, and second part in French, but I got it.

Daniel is an amazing actor, and the movie is true, dark and dramatic.
I personally don´t understand why such a nice guy (as he appears to me) like Salvador had to use guns, but it is not up to me to criticize, I didn´t live there.
I was crying much at the end, not only that they sentenced him to death, much more for the kind of death they chose for him. I couldn´t watch it, it was so painfull, I had to skip throuhg it.

But one part of the movie which really touched my heart was the one when Salvador met for the first time his lover, they were in her room, and the music which was playing was perfect for the moment, Leonard Cohen - Suzanne. The look Daniel gave Ingrid when he touched her thight, and then when she kissed him, took the joint from him,inhaled and let out the smoke aside, it was such a charming moment. I´m not much into romantic, and I wouldn´t call it romantic neither,It is some lazy sexy love time,but this glamorous moment got under my skin.